2 years ago I used to be a complete a$$. I would hate everyone for what they had, be envious and mean to every one of my classmates and genuinely hate them (for no reason whatsoever – they didn’t do anything to me). I would literally not talk to anyone because I was gealous of them. At the same time I used to be very intolerant and xenophobic. My ego was so big, I considered everyone an idiot.
In the past 2 years I made a complete U-turn and am now extremely sociable and likable and I love being with other people. Now I am very open and can talk to anyone freely, for hours.
The question is why was I so rotten back then? What part inside of me made behave that way? I’m really unable to understand why I did the things I did.
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It’s called growing up. Live and learn
Depends on how you were raised I guess, what you were taught to look up to and idolize. Whether your role models behaved like this or not around other people and you. What media you were exposed to, etc. Otherwise, jealousy seriously twists people, so it really could’ve been just that.
It’s best not to dwell on the past if it’s keeping you from growing in the present. You’ve realized you sucked, you’re putting effort into changing, and that’s what matters now.