whats wrong with me?

hi everyone i need advice. so last august i decided that i wanted to enter the dating market and possibly get into a real relationship. i felt like i was emotionally ready, financially and i would have more time because i just finished grad school. so i downloaded hinge and had decent success with around 100 matches in 2 months, of these matches i had 2 dates with 2 different women. the first women was nice and i felt we had alot in common. after the first date we made out and she wanted to what i felt was rush into a relationship. i personally wanted to take things slow. then slowly i got an “ick” which the idea of a relationship really felt uncomfortable to me. i thought it might have been due to the girl i was with maybe we werent compatible. anyways i moved on and had another date with a another girl. we had a great time and she really struck all the boxes i wanted in a partner. she even paid fully for our 2nd date and after she told me she had feeling for me. i really liled her but for some reason im not sure why but the idea of being in a relationship really thru me off. i told her if we can take it slow. and currently i am still talking to her. but im not sure whats wrong? like why cant i be okay with a relationship in my head? i know im attracted to women 100% so its not what your thinking