Anyone else feel like social skills aren’t even a real thing and that no matter how much effort you’ve put in it never seems to be good enough for people?

I’ve put in so much effort opening up talking to people trying to be funny and people still seem to not want to engage with me. It feels like they find me unbearably boring or just awkward and ugly and don’t want to engage with me. Literally I try to start conversation and people are just like “yeah….” Then the convo ends. I think it’s a mix of my lack of life experience and my ugliness. And it feels like there’s nothing I can do to make people want to engage with me… like no matter how hard I’ve tried and it’s exhausting. What’s the point of putting all this effort in to not get anywhere?

Normal people who have tons of friends and respect aren’t consciously thinking of the “right” or “wrong” things to say or how they’re coming across they’re just naturally being themselves and everyone loves them and wants to talk to them… and it’s the opposite for me