TL;DR : Mom and I will be on the same city yet she won’t allow me despite her good mood and my good ‘daughter image’. I need to actually take a break from my toxic family at home, be away, before going back to school. I already have a budget prepared, I can also cook, etc. It’s just her permission that I need, I can’t run away.
My mom will just be on the same city for her work just for that week. It’s the only and last free time that I have before school starts. I, for the past three years, never had a decent vacation or ‘rest’ from all the stress. For the past week I have not been allowed despite telling her my reasons why I should take a vacation, and why she should allow me:
• School was stressful. Really took a toll on my mental health. I deserve ONE vacation.
• I have more than enough money for myself to survive and thrive there for the duration of my stay.
• I’ll stay somewhere else. She thinks I want to stay at their hotel WITH her co-workers.
• We’re both on the city, we can meet up if she wants to.
• I’ve been a good child??? lmao she knows.
• My parents literally said I’d rather be outside than stay indoors, sitting all day. So…. this is what they want right? I’d rather walk and explore. (Same, mom and dad so please allow me 😭)
• Transportation is easy, I won’t go with them obviously. I have enough money for my own fare.
I’ve been saying these, might have forgotten a few more, but ugh it’s always a failure! I’ve did a good number of favors for my mom (like doing chores and finding her missing items) but nah, still not changing her decision. I don’t want to bribe nor blackmail her, duh!
Sorry for my endless “I” statements. I can cook instead of eating out. I can take care of myself, and etc. Not sure if the possibility of her allowing me will be higher if I told her I’ll be going there with my friends (to be safe, and to save on money and time!), she’ll think we’ll all mess around and I’ll get pregnant (absurd, ikr. i won’t even do it).
All she says when she doesn’t allow me is because I have more ‘next times’. No. To be fair, next times are not guaranteed. Tomorrow is not guaranteed, even. I want to take this chance. She said I should graduate first before going places, yet I explored other places already with her permission. Except none of them were overnight stays. She also says I should go with my family instead but I don’t want to. My dad ruins our vacation honestly.
Permission is all I need. I couldn’t run away, my dad’s home. If I’m allowed by my mom, then my dad will allow me. Transporting to that place all by myself isn’t really that hard.
For more context: my dad’s so toxic lmao i couldn’t even take a proper break at home. that’s just it.
So far, I’m just asking her. I haven’t showed her my budget nor itinerary yet 💀