Having complex borderline personality disorder makes it seem impossible for me to have meaningful and healthy relationships. My moods are highly unstable and i’m overly empathetic and sensitive to other’s moods, and feel every emotion intensely. I’m doing therapy: had to go no contact with my narcissistic family system, and currently experiencing tremendous grief. I feel weak as a man due to my sensitivity and empathy: was the family scapegoat and stuck in the victim mindset for decades due to emotional incest and narcissistic abuse.
Any advice for someone who feels intensely hopless and useless one minute and then can be extremely charismatic and funny the next? I’m very passionate and am aware of having many good qualities but fear intimacy/attracting a narcissistic partner again (before being diagnosed, i attracted several abusive narcissists). It is difficult to trust others and my own judgment.