My (25F) boyfriend (23M) for the past few months has been making being with him extremely difficult. We’ve been together for 4 years now and I am on edge all the time, always worrying I’m going to make him angry, feeling so down on myself because of things he’s said to me. This has caused me to lose a lot of feelings I once had and honestly I don’t know how to get those feelings back if I even can. I tried breaking up with him, I explained everything I was feeling, all the hurt and things that have been bothering me. He begged me not to leave, promised me he would change and stop all of the hurtful things he was doing. He has been so positive and happy were working things out, but I have just been on autopilot. I thought maybe getting everything out would help, but it didn’t I’ve simply lost a lot of feelings I’ve had with him, but I can’t break his heart. He has been good not saying anything rude, but at the same time it’s driving me crazy because he’s acting like I’m going to break at the slightest little thing. I am really not sure where to go from here anymore.
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Tl;dr- I tried to leave my boyfriend for his rude and bad behaviour, but he talked me back into the relationship. He promised to change and he’s been so happy were giving it another chance, but I am still hurt and no longer feel the same way about him.