So, I met a girl on Tinder. She is bi and likes to go to swing *secks* clubs. At first , we were just hooking up but things evolved and now we have a relationship. We went together to a swing Club but I got so nervous that I couldn’t talk to anyone but she was comprehensive and we only had *secks* with eachother that night. I really want to repeat the experience and other things but jealousy and need for control are present from my part. Turns out that we don’t have many things in common but I still like her company and she is helping me discover this side of me that I’ve been affraid to explore. As a friend she is phenomenal. But we are both introverts and is getting more and more difficult to bring some excitment into out lives, It’s getting boring. This relationship is feeling like a duty that I don’t think I want. She says she wants a monogamous relationship with me but I think she is not capable of keeping it longterm specially being bi and having attraction for both sexes. And honestly, neither do I. I love her and have a special care for her, we have talked about getting married, having kids, etc… but I think I’m not prepared for that right now and even with her, being the way she is. I want her to be her fully self but I also want her commitment to me. So, I’m confused because I like her and want to have those experiences with her but I don’t want to feel jealousy. So, I’m thinking about telling her that is really hard for me to trust her for a exclusive relationship but I still want us to be a type of friends with benefits and being with her as a person that I can trust in other ways, without the exclusive sexual commitment to eachother. The funny thing is that she looks like a church girl and me the badboy but it turns out we are the opposite. Her friendship would mean a lot to me and the *secks* is amazing but I don’t have much to offer right now and we keep fighting because of my lack of confidence in her faithfulness or mine. Any advice???
TL;DR: Is it right if I turn Back to friends with benefits with my possibly future ex girlfriend?