Really missing this girl I used to date briefly. We had amazing chemistry and got along super well. Amazing conversation… it was one of those connections where you deeply understand the others’ mind and had the same style of communication. She was probably one of the only people I’ve been able to connect with and share ideas with to a certain level. Not taking general hypothetical scenarios that you can have with your friends, but more the ability to express one’s self clearly and feel seen by while simultaneously “seeing” the other person. I’ve just never had that with someone. She’s a beautiful girl with great qualities. She also expressed her appreciation for my qualities and such, there was a mutual respect on both sides.
Long story short I got hsv-1 from someone who took advantage of me while I was drunk a long time ago. I told her about it and she couldn’t go forward romantically. This was after about 1.5 months and 5 dates.
It’s only been 1 month since we stopped talking. Am I delusional in thinking I should reach out? I get this is a dealbreaker but honestly I know the connection we had was special.. she was devastated when I told her because she was looking forward to a future