My partner and I have been together for just about 2 years now, and he is the light of my life. I love him to bits, and I feel like he completes me. Emotionally he is my world, but as of late I’ve had trouble engaging with him sexually. Usually he is the top with a strap-on and I am the bottom. We also have sex where I am penetrating, but he is still taking the dominant role.
I love cum. I want to be covered in it, filled with it, forced to drink it, etc, but my boyfriend is transmasc and doesn’t exactly have the facilities participate in the aforementioned activities. We’ve gotten toys that can mimic these effects (ie: bad dragon dildos with cumtubes) but it just doesn’t feel right. I’ve tried to talk about expanding our relationship so that my needs can be met, like finding a random guy every once in a while that we could do like a threesome or something with, but my boyfriend is the overly jealous type, and shuts down the conversation every time I’ve initiated it.
I want to explore sexually and have my needs fulfilled, but I don’t want him to feel like I like another person more because they have different anatomy and I don’t want him to feel left behind. How can I explore my kink and keep my relationship intact? I care about him so much. I love him and I’d like to explore with him, but I think he’s afraid I’ll run off. I have no intention of leaving him at all and I will NOT cheat. I just don’t know how to scratch this itch without hurting him or leaving him in the dust.
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I was going to suggest a prosthetic that can release cum-like substance (like lube), but it sounds like you’ve already tried that.
Have you tried cumming inside of him and then eating your own cum from him? Or perhaps cumming on him and licking it off? Or even cumming on yourself (like your stomach), and him forcing you to eat it? I know it’s not exactly the same, but that could do something to help satisfy the fetish.
I’m also a huge supporter of non-monogamy- it’s done wonders for my sex life and has been such an amazing addition to my life. That being said, I know it’s not for everybody. If your boyfriend truly does not want to engage in non monogamy, that is absolutely within his right and totally understandable. That being said, if he was willing to entertain the notion, there are a ton of resources available to help people work through jealousy and feelings and become better acquainted with themselves and the source of those feelings (The Jealousy Workbook being one of those resources!) r/nonmonogamy is also a great place to find info!
I’m not suggesting pressuring him unto NM- I’m just suggesting that if you ever did want to bring it up again, to come to the table with some solid information and potential reading that would show you’ve done some work and research in order to protect his feelings and your relationship!
Well if he doenst want to open the relationship you cant force him to.
The question is how important is that kink of yours compared to your relationship. Sometimes you cant have it all.
You can try using your own sperm or use synthetic sperm, you can try orher bodily fluids, if hes into it…