I had know this boy for a year now but only in the distance, i got feelings for him and he knows it, the problem is that he lives in the same country as i but in another state, we never meet irl and we got our differences before but overall my relationship with him is pretty close, we have calls like for hours and watch movies together. so like i said we have a good relationship. But this past Saturday i was in a party with my family in the night and he was really sad since the beginning of the day, so she message me in the night saying that he needs me and of course i call him to see what’s its happening, he doesn’t answer and a couple hours later says that he doesn’t want to ruin the party, but that’s not problem for me cause i love him. so we finally have the call and i stay the night with him..
i don’t remember exactly what happened but he was saying cute stuff like i love you, i want a hug and a kiss this is usual stuff from him in the night, he always says this pretty wholesome and cute things over the phone to me and i like that cause is the only time of day that he is that close to me.
after a while of being like this wholesome and cute, he starts to do questions about sex. something like if he says ” i want to fuck” in front of me, i obviously accept it (and he is right) i tried to be more denial but he really knows me.. he still insist on that subject and make more hints that go over my head, but i got one and i started to question him if he wanted to have it, and we did. it was awesome for me I never thought that I love doing something like this , i became happy that i finally connected like that cause i wanted to be close to him.
But after it, he says that it was a mistake… and we should never talk about it. i became more confuse. The other day we still had another call in the night and it happened again we started having sex over the phone i admit that it was my mistake for bringing the subject again , but he even like it, and after it again he stay clear that it was another mistake. i felt stupid and sad for thinking that he like it. so by Monday he text me that it was going to take a couple of days without me.. and now I’m overthinking so much (i am the problem?)
we had another call today and he insist that i don’t bring the subject again that it was stupid, because he feels uncomfortable and he only wants a good and cute friendship. but still wants a couple of days off with me
TLDR: We had sex over the phone that we like and now he asked me a week off with me because he thinks that the sex was a mistake, and only wants to be my friend
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