I fucked up…

Met this really great person on a dating app back in October and really hit it off. We could not meet for the first couple of months due to scheduling conflicts but finally managed to do s0 a couple of weeks ago. Our first two dates went really great (lasted for more than 4 hours and not a lot of awkward pauses). Only thing was that I would only make plans to meet up and this person would not initiate. After our second date they did not text me for more than four days so I ended up getting super anxious. Here is where I fucked up!! I knew they was actively using dating apps so me and my friend decided to make a fake profile to see what they were up to (I know what we did is terrible, but we were super drunk). We eventually matched with this person and started chatting. But we don’t know how but they figured out it was actually me pretending to be someone else. Long story short, he said he did not want to see me anymore. I tried explaining but they were not ready to listen.

So I know I messed up this entire situation. This was someone I had actually liked in a really long time but my stupid anxious self just fucked this up. Is there a way to come back from this? I know I broke this person’s trust but can I explain otherwise? I really do miss talking to them and have not stopped thinking about it ever since the incident. Mostly I am feeling embarrassed for what I did.