I’m a 19 male in a relationship with a 21 male..we have been together for a couple of months now but I’m too insecure about the fact that he watches porn.
I know it is normal to watch porn + we don’t live together therefore we don’t have sex that often..I do watch porn too, but I had caught him sexting boys on grindr in the past and even tho we are over this but i just can’t shake my head off that he is not sexually satisfied with me.
I watch porn too but not closely as much as he does.
He follows hot boys/porn on every social platform he has..and he has MANY kinks and sexual preferences for people that look nothing like me and fantasizes about threesomes in his dreams. My insecurities get triggered so easily now and I pick up on small things all the time. One time he asked for nudes..I got up n took some n sent him but then he left them on delivered n watched porn instead. I don’t know what would that mean but that he is not sexually satisfied with me. Now whenever he makes the slightest comment about anything to change in my appearance, my mind starts goes straight to thinking that he wants me to look more like a porn star he follows maybe.
I get that he may have got used to me but I try all the things he kinks he likes and I put alot of work to spice things up..
I feel like I barely fit into his type..I have never felt this insecure in my whole life. It’s getting really terrible and I can’t help but think about it everyday
TL;DR: I’ve caught him sexting online before and now I pick up on many small actions and I’m worried he perceives porn as “what he wish he had instead of me” instead of a just material to jerk off to
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You’re worried because he’s giving you reason to worry!
He’s not acting like he’s satisfied with you, and that’s not really okay. It’s somewhat normal to watch porn every once in a while while you’re in a relationship, but following specific people/leaving you on read after HE initiated/making comments on your appearance isn’t normal in the slightest.
There’s not really a solution here. You can talk to him about the way these things make you feel, but the chances that he makes significant change are very low. He’s probably just not ready to be in a committed relationship… and if that’s the case you’re going to have to leave eventually for your own mental health.