I’m very ashamed to say that, and I know reddit is not the best place to ask about it. I’m going to therapy already, just wondering what experience has taught you guys, and what counselor you have for me.
So, I’m a jealous guy. Already had some posts about that here, but I don’t know if I can describe this as jealousy. The guy’s dead. He died when she was younger than me. She obviously got over it, at least it seems like, she nevers mention it or show any signs of this. But I can’t stop thinking about it.
What if she projects him in me, because I’m younger? Does she loves me or is she still thinking of him? Will I ever be able to replace him?
I know this is a disgusting thing to think, and I’m sorry. Please help me. I will never talk to her about it because the chances this offend her are 1000%, and I already have jealousy about more present silly things, so there’s that. I just don’t want to feel it anymore.