I started seeing my boyfriend 2 years ago. I had just got out of a relationship. Now we’re two years in. I thought I was happy but now I’m realizing that I’m not. And I don’t know if it’s because of my boyfriend and the nature of our relationship or if it’s just my mental health. Or maybe I’m just getting older
Here’s some context:
With my ex I was very on top of my appearance. I got my nails done 2x a month. I got my hair done monthly. I got my eyebrows done. I’d always “dress to impress” I was a gym rat. I always smelled good. Etc. I was well put together all the time. It wasn’t just my appearance I was more driven too. I graduated college with Latin honors. I was able to get my dream job.
And now I can’t even make it through a workout I did 2 years ago. I stopped shaving my legs. I don’t get waxed. I don’t get my nails done. I have my hair in a bun 24/7. I don’t wear form fitting clothes. I’m struggling to accomplish my career goals. I don’t care about a lot.
In one hand I’m thinking that it’s good that my boyfriend has allowed me to be so comfortable that I’m not stressing over my appearance because he loves me just the way I am… but in the other hand I don’t like myself this way. I thought my ex made me feel like I had to do these things but now I realize I never did it for him it was always for me. But now I find it hard to do things for me.
I want my drive back. But I don’t know how to talk to my boyfriend about it. I don’t want him to think I’m blaming him. So what would be the best way to put these thoughts into words that wouldn’t have my boyfriend thinking that I’m comparing him? Also how do I get out of this funk? Cause telling him is one thing but stopping this feeling is another.
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What does this have to do with your boyfriend?