My experience

I was dating a guy for about a year and it was a very emotionally confusing relationship. One minute he wanted me, the next he didn’t. He would tell me he didn’t want a girlfriend so I would distance myself and the minute I did, he came running back. The ups and downs turned me into an anxious wreck.

I blamed myself for our breakup because I felt like I wasn’t this perfect girl anymore. I’d started acting like an insecure, whiny person because I didn’t trust him anymore. I hated being that girl. I blocked him on EVERYTHING the second we broke up and haven’t looked back. It’s only been three months but I’ve gone on several weekend solo trips (hiking especially), I’ve surrounded myself with friends, I’ve gone back to therapy, and I’ve gotten back into the gym. Essentially I’ve started dating myself. I’m still hurting a little bit but I’m learning SO MUCH about myself and I’m finally learning to be happy alone.