I got to preface that I’m diagnosed as being the the autism spectrum disorder
I have realized I lack self awareness in social situation
I think that can be the only explanation. I realize that after having interacted quite some time with me, people will usually treat me like I’m a burden like I’m stupid and childish, and I’d usually blatantly get ignored. Few assholes will find this opportunity exaggerate certain things about me and to blame everything out to be my fault
I can blame society for this but, thinking again, if many people do treat me like this, and I’m the common denominator, I’m partial if not mostly responsible for this at all.
I think that even though I don’t socialize much, when I do have much lower inhibition. I don’t read the room quite well which can cause people to feel unconsciously irritated. Their interactions with me deals more with their tolerance then from genuine appraisal or sharing of value. This can be the root cause of why people might feel what they feel