I don’t really know how to elaborate. My friend was acting kind of crazy with this breakup with another member of the friend group, and it seems like they don’t want to be around him anymore. And I’m not even sure I want to be around him, it makes me anxious, but I’m trying to stay neutral.
He was the one who organized a lot of hangouts, and now a lot of them are hanging out together without me. Seems like a new group chat that I’m not in or something lol. When I do see them, I think they enjoy me.
I’m funny and I make people laugh. I’m kind and interesting. Just kind of neurotic.
I’m not sure how to deal with this situation without coming off as clingy. I’m trying to let them go and move on to making new friends, but it’s hard because I really did want to get to know them better.
I am nervous about texting people one on one to ask them to hang out. I am bad at making plans and don’t want to “invite myself” for lack of a better word, but I wonder if I need to do that.
I know I have low self esteem, but I’m not sure how to improve my self esteem if I can’t understand people’s motivations and can’t understand how to improve as a social person.
This has greatly affected my mental health.