This has not happened yet but if it did would be it be a 🚩
I feel we are all in the same boat wanting to find that special one or that amazing friend and it’s rear that you do connect but when it happens it’s butterflys and rainbows.
We have agreed to just be friends as we haven’t met each other face to face but we desire so much more. We have been talking a little under a year now on and off and he is talking about flying to see his (dad+family) and friends that stay near me and a big part of him wanting to fly is to see me.
Our friendship is growing stronger each time the season chang making me want to spend the rest of my life with him . We would be dating if it was up to me but he feels we are not ready and that we also need to meet each other to see if it’s the same .
We try keep our conversation strictly friends but we do end up Flirting and having fun but after that I do feel sad, unvalued, used maybe for pleasure and fun.
Don’t get me wrong I want this just as much as he does but I just wish we could he official that’s all so it’s not as if we are friends with benefits.
I am willing to wait and he does understand how this does hurt me and he tries to be careful as well and he does understand when I set boundaries when it comes to sending pics and videos. We both struggle when it’s come to affection… as I will flirt with him .
I am just worried because he can’t do LDR he would not see me as anything serious. LDR can be very expensive so it might be a lot of pressure on him. Is he willing to put in the work ?? I don’t know ….
**** My point****
Is it a deal breaker when we do meet for the 1st time after talking to each other for months ,is it a deal breaker if he doesn’t get me anything special , would that be a sign he is just here for fun . (While visiting his family and friends)
Because there is no doubt that we would be able to keep our hands off of each other that’s for sure but then I also don’t want us to just be a summer fling but for us to grow into something special.
So before I let him in what could the signs that he wants something serious with me and that he doesn’t just want to play around ???
P.s we are both not ready for a relationship because we recently (+-12 months relationship ended) . He being engagement and me being in a 2 year toxic relationship.
So we both are wanting to take this time to work on ourselves and learn to love ourselves before loving another person while being there as a friend .
I just cant help myself not to fall deeply in love with him , he feels the same way and that makes me happy.
I am just scared he can’t do LDR where I am okay with it knowing we would be able to make a life together.
And for me to live with him we would need to get married and he has told me he is not ready for marriage(as he just got out of an engagement- close to a year now ) but it’s something he does want and has mentioned that he would like that with me but again we need time to work on ourselves.
Another p.s
We met I would feel on a rebound stage where I feel it grow/growing into something special.
If you read all this I do thank you so much for taking your time to understand the story .💖