He [29M] was turned off that I’m a virgin [27F].

Seeing this guy casually. Halfway making out at his place last night after dinner I felt like sex was gonna happen and I had to tell him. I really don’t have a good reason why sex didn’t happen for me all these years, I have dated since high school. I just never got sexually aroused enough to want to do it. Now at an older age, I’m getting hornier and want it? I don’t want to wait around for a relationship to happen to have sex. Hence the casual with this guy.

I told him with the intention of just letting him know because we both know this is casual and I’m a consenting sober adult that obviously want this. Boy, he was shocked. He stopped dead in his tracks and said he can’t do this. Immediately I felt hella rejected from his response and ashamed for wanting to lose my virginity this way.

Noticing that I was upset he processed it for awhile and decided to have sex with me anyway. He already got hard. We did the deed, but it felt like he was doing me a favour.

I was being casual with him in hope this would turn into a fwb situation – because it’s not easy for me to find someone I’m physically attracted to and know enough to rule out the fact that he might be a serial killer. I went home and we never spoke again, I’m still horny for him and don’t want to put myself out there again to sleep around with another guy.

I don’t know what I’m asking for in this post, I just didn’t expect his reaction, my confidence took a hit and things went downhill from there. Now I’m no longer a virgin, still horny for him and don’t want to do casual with someone else anytime soon. But he probably doesn’t want to see me again, what should I do?