Social fuck ups

So it’s a pretty long story but I’ll make it short. Or at least I’ll try to. I haven’t been able to speak till I was 10, I have a major speech language impediment and I don’t exactly know how to be friends or funny around people. I always thought that sex jokes and controversial subjects would make me funny. And it just never worked. Not at all. And I just don’t learn this lesson.

I’m in a pottery class and I met Jabril. He’s cool, awesome, just the best. He’s relaxed and doesn’t talk. He liked me a bit and I sat with him and his friends. I had a slight crush on his friend and didn’t know the other that well. I flirted with her once and then I found out she was lesbian and stopped. I kept up just talking about the people I’ve fucked and how I work out, and the cool skateboarding tricks I do. I don’t remember staring or eyeing at the friend I use to have a crush on but they said I eyed her all the way. And they just got weirded out. The second friend I just ignored because she didn’t like me so I pretended she didn’t exist. Apparently she didn’t like that? I mean I got the idea she just didn’t like me so I ignored her. They confronted me and said “be normal and change or leave.” And I didn’t know what to say or so I just left.

I met this other friend group that probably ignored me and stayed away for the same reason. I only have 2 friend groups that just actually like me. I call this a 50/50 effect where half people like me a lot and the other half just despise me. I’ve grown to accept this but I just want everyone to like me. I know the solution is just act normal, don’t joke and be serious. I don’t know what to do, I’m going to college in 5 months and at this point I think I’m on the track of failing socially in college. And I don’t want to. I know I’m a good person, I know I do nice things for other people and care about what other people think.