I know I shouldn’t be feeling this way… but I’m slowly falling out of love with my bf for the tiniest things.
We’re both college students, but his workload is about half of mine. Like, he literally only has 1-3 classes a day while I have 3-5. Somehow, I make an effort to at least have a short convo with him every day.
On the other hand, he can go an entire day not saying hi to me, only sending streaks on snap at night. I talked to him about it and he says it’s because he’s busy and tired, but I can’t help but be hurt because I’m also busy and tired, but I make an effort to show him I love him every day.
He told me I was his first priority in the beginning of our relationship, but every now and then he tells me he’s gamed with his friends during his free time after a full day of radio silence on my end. He’s even had a 6hr phone call an old female friend he hasn’t talked to in a while. “We just caught up.” He said.
Yet, he didn’t even say hi to me the night they talked. I feel so hurt. I keep telling myself maybe he’s just not the texting type, but how can I believe that when he constantly texts his female friends (they have a gc where it’s just him and other girls) back when we’re together. Even when he does text me back, it’s always the driest emojis or one word responses.
Now, sometimes when we do see each other in person, it’s like I forget all his texting habits and I fall in love all over again. However, other times he just seems a bit distant especially after I’ve given him a bj or hj.
This man meant so much to me before we started dating and he’s always been someone I trusted fully as a friend, but somehow being in a relationship with him made me doubt everything so much.
My ex I had before him worked in construction while taking college courses, and he always managed to make time for me. We broke up for mutual reasons. I know I shouldn’t be comparing the two, but it’s been a real struggle getting used to my bf’s quietness compared to the consistent communication with my ex.
I’ve communicated with my bf about all of this and I still feel this way. I don’t know what to do anymore.