In school i have really bad memories that have scarred me for life. I kind of fluctuated between being unpopular and the hang-around scum of the popular group. Anyways I constantly got critisced about my looks, I was never fat/obese even though I had nasty comments about my weight, was never the prettiest girl but I certainly was not the worst! Anyways I found people made me feel like I was entitled be put down and to be treated like I was less then everyone else. I will use an example one time I was in year9 at school and I got professional photos, hair and makeup done, they did a brilliant job! Anyways a few girls had a look and instead of going oh yeh you look really nice and leaving it at that, they went around to the boys at school and said this is my cousin blah blah do you think she is hot blah blah. Yes the guys that bullied me showed a different opinion in a different light, however I was not the one who asked for their opinion or their approval. Like I don’t get it, why couldn’t my so called friends just say I looked nice, left it at that. It’s really made me feel like I deserve to be treated like garbage and anything that is worthy of a compliment I do not deserve!
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There are two types of popular kids generally. The less noticeable ones who are decent and well adjusted humans. Then there are the noticeable ones, because they go out of their way to be noticed, because they need validation because they are insecure, because they need validation. And they live an inauthentic dog eat dog life and their status and friends are the result of a precious balance of power based on image that not everyone is paying attention to. They were mean to you to keep their image and because they are insecure. The rules of the game are inauthentic and made up and based on very little, and so aren’t fair or consistent.