This post isn’t even about my ex. It has to do with him, but it’s more about this new guy who somehow makes me feel worse than my ex did. The issue is we’re in the same organization and he’s very popular. I had this huge crush on him and we would flirt, but then he told me he chokes people when he’s scared like during horror movies. I have trauma with my ex saying he wanted to suffocate me. I knew I shouldn’t sit near him again the next event and try to talk but I was like a moth drawn to a flame. Only I couldn’t find the words and just sat there listening to him entertain the group the whole time. He ignored me most of the time and made me feel invisible. Seems to be another narcissist. I feel stupid and frustrated. I cried when I got home. I don’t know what to do because we’re in the same organization. I can skip the social events but don’t want to miss out on networking, but also don’t want to be feeling sad and unhealthy after being near him each time. Maybe I should just force myself to sit in a different group? Why does he bring out this sad defenseless side of me? Why do I miss my ex so much after talking to this guy? 😭 thank you.