M16, I’ve just finished junior year of high school in a class of 55 students (very small but it’s pretty normal in my country), and I’ve made pretty much no friends. When I started the year I felt so much better since I’d joined a new school for junior and senior year after spending almost a decade with no proper friends at my old school. I had like 5-6 friends I could talk to but about a week ago I realized I didn’t even really like them and that they were pretty much fake. The only friend I’ve got now is a 12th grader, and she leaves in about a month so I don’t even know who I can talk to anymore.
Half the grade is people I would rather not associate myself with (annoying, racist, homophobic and whatnot) and the majority of the other half have known each other since they were young so I never had any scope of being close to them. (I usually like to have 2-3 very close friends that I can rely on rather than like 20). I’ve been pretty much lonely for majority of my schooling so I don’t really know if I’m the issue or if it’ll get better in college. I do realize that it’s just one more year and I’ll never have to worry about this place but I just want to know if there’s anything I can do to make this last year at least a bit more tolerable. Any advice?