First of all English is not my first language so I’m sorry for any mistake
Long story short neither of us has come out yet, I’m not even sure to be queer at this point but this is not really the problem. We didn’t start dating straight away, we were really close friends for like a year (we knew each other before but we were not that close), but the lines between that and dating were really blurry, we started cuddling and hugging more than friends would do. Then we came out to each other and later on she made a move on me so the thing also became sexual but we were not “officially” dating. After some months she asked me out and we became girlfriends. Then after two months or so we moved in together (for college but we are alone in the same flat) and we were living as a couple.
After some months I started to feel more “numb”, i had not the same “desire” for her. We talked it through and it turned out she felt the same. We agreed to go with the flow because we deeply care for each other and even if we would break up we still want to be friends.
This evening we saw each other in a friendly way but when we where alone after some cuddling and kisses she had a little crisis because she said she still has feelings for me, but she was also sure of what she felt the other day, so that maybe right now we see each other as friends. She doesn’t know if it was just a moment of crisis but we had not the time to talk about it.
Personally I don’t really know what to think, I really really care about her, she is my best friend first of all and I don’t want to ruin it for her. At the same time I don’t want to end it like that because it would feel strangely wrong without our cuddling, hugs and other things. At this time the thing that makes more sense to me is like a relationship without the “sexual part” but I don’t want to be egoistic or toxic in any way.
If somebody will read this rambling and as some advice thank you, really ❤️