I used to be fun, passionate, easy to talk to, stylish… Now, I feel like no matter what I do it’s not the same anymore.
I’m 21. I do all of these things still but with less will for life than a 16 yo I guess (So many shitty things happened since then). No matter how friendly I act, there is always an awkwardness with literally everyone. It used to feel super easy to me and I used to suck as a person, I was kind of toxic as a teen yet I managed to make many friends before. I feel like I improved a lot as a person and yet, it feels like everyone is slightly disgusted by me. I love to crack jokes but no one laughs at them. I know for a fact that they are easy to understand and funny but no, not even a kind chuckle.
I feel like I have been cursed with an air of ‘never approach me, I’m weird’ or something. Am I alone in this? Please, if you have ever experienced this tell me.