I’m a 29M who doesn’t have any experience with sex in terms of P in V. I’ve had one proper relationship 5 yrs ago which was my first relationship where I was able to kiss, get a blowjob, get jerked off by said GF, at the time,and suck on my partner’s breasts. But she never wanted to have sex with me even though she’d grind on me and then blue ball me majority of the time. She had dumped me after about a year of dating and still no sex. I didn’t want to be the pushy guy so I never communicated my needs fully to make sure everything was consensual. I didn’t think it would be this hard to have sex by my age and a part of me is feeling more and more insecure. I’m already lacking self-esteem due to my teen yrs. Now I think I’m going to actually end up being that 40 yrs old virgin with no experience. Is there a way to just lose it and move on? I know men’s “viriginity” isn’t seen as a good thing generally as it seems to be a turn OFF for women. I’d like some thoughts and advice on how to handle this the older I get. Other thing Ive noticed is even masturbation has made me feel iffy these days. I’m not a porn addict but I do self pleasure about once every 2-3 days. But after I masturbate I’m starting to feel more depressed because its not the real experience of sex. Wondering if there are other guys my age or older who can understand where I’m coming from. All sides can chime in but just be as kind as you can. Thank you