I am the ”weird kid”

Since I was little I was introduced to gaming, I based my personality on it, I was playing games maybe since I was 4 years old with my father. And I love it and always loved it, the problem is that no one around me enjoys it as much as I do. And in elementary school maybe first 7 years I thought that hardcore gaming and being the silent one with no friends was cool and I was special better than everyone else. I never went outside just for fun because I thought that my pc at home was better and I was happy with it and that It was all I needed. Man was I wrong. Around that awkward age when everyone hit puberty I was still like that. But I started to realize that I am not that one cool kid, I was the one weird silent kid that everyone hates to hangout with. I had \[and have\] problem talking to people besides my close family. I remember this particular moment when I was on a school skiing trip but I was with different school than mine. I was in a group with these kids that were very loud but most importantly I was with these 2 girls that I went to kindergarten with. They were really nice and wanted to talk to me because we haven’t spoken for a long time and I just couldn’t, I don’t know why it was hard for me to talk to them. I ended up being that one weird silent kid in front of other school because my mind is just fucked up from the lack of social contact. I again sat in my room not talking to anyone when everyone was inviting me and I was like nooooooo, its just not for me, and again as I wanted, everybody stopped talking to me. I ended up calling my father begging him to pick me up. And he did. And now that I am thinking about it I ended being the weird kid that talks to nobody, sits on his phone all day, and his dad had to pick him up. I am just like that, I don’t want to be like that. If anyone has any experience with something like this please tell me what you think.