[Vent Post] Tired of dealing with people.

This is a vent post, but feel free to give any advice.
Anyways, I’ve noticed that most people around me seem to expect me to keep running after them and initiate conversations, and as a person with a modicum of self-respect I’d rather not run behind people all the time.

Considering the fact that relationships are a two way street, it’s quite infuriating when all the expectations fall on me to keep the relationship going. I’ve noticed this especially with people who have their own groups; tribalism runs deep in my college.

What I don’t understand is that, when you join a social group, doesn’t everyone have to be accepting of the fact that they’re okay with including you within the group? I understand if you want me to keep initiating conversations the first three or four times or until you get comfortable is reasonable, but expecting me to keep running up to you all the time and chat you up, is something I’m not willing to do. Would it be incorrect to think this way?

My other qualm with people I see on a daily basis is that they take way too long to open up. Like they’re extremely curious about your life, but it doesn’t work the other way around? I find this to be quite silly and irritating. It almost feels like they’re judging you to see whether you make a good pair for them based on the way I live life? What happened to those times where people used to meet up with the sole intention of having fun?

Anyways, I’m find it quite appalling that everyone I see has the same traits and social walls. It feels like everyone thinks they’re opening pandora’s box when I talk to them. Honestly speaking, I feel as though I’m feeding everyones ego when I talk to them.

Welp, thank you for reading the entirety of my post, and I hope you have a great day going ahead.