which i don’t really have a lot
whether meeting new ppl, going out to a dinner party, or just any function, I’m like “sure let’s do this”. Then the butterflies happen. I don’t know what to say, how to say stuff, if im too loud or quiet, if what im gonna say is stupid. Then my mind starts racing. And I choke up. And I seal up. And I just stop saying anything and just be quiet until someone points out that im being quiet…in front of everyone.
hate when that happens😔
I’m up to be sociable. Even when I don’t feel like it. I don’t want to go out to things sometimes because I’m just introverted. I kinda have this idea that if I keep putting myself out there I can improve myself. It’s not really working. Doesn’t really work.
I gotta b autistic or some shit