Wtf is wrong with me. Yesterday I went to a friends house that I met on bumble. I already knew she and her bf were swingers. That didn’t bother me because I too have had group sex.
We were playing Do or drink and I was trying to do as many dares as I could so I wouldn’t get drunk. I got the card take 3 items of clothes off and thats literally all the items i had on. I was vibing with them so I asked if they were alright with me being naked. The husband started fondling me more and I kept looking at his gf to make sure everything was ok. More war and point to whoever you think xzy cards were pulled. I got tipsy pretty quick.
He got a card that the person to the left has to help him to the bathroom. So I helped him in the bathroom where he proceeded to forcefully bent me over the sink and try to fuck my ass. I just stood there in shock and thought ‘this is it this is me getting raped’. He took me to the bedroom where we had a 3some as I was still in shock and had no idea what to do as I was butt naked.
The gf asked if Id add her bf on snap. I didn’t want to hurt her feelings so when I clicked on the user it said he was blocked. So ive met him before and gave me such bad vibes before I blocked him. Wtf is wrong with me. I think im going to block both once they are asleep.
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You should go to a shrink and get your self destructive behavior checked on
Oof, I’m sorry this happened to you. I had a friend who was pretty much raped by two of her (married) friends M/F and it was an awful experience for her. It’s a very uncomfortable and awkward situation to be in, *for sure.*
It sounds like what you did was freeze and maybe fawn? Not exactly sure, but it’s not uncommon. I would imagine in the situation you were in, (2 against 1), freezing/fawning felt like the safest choice.
Blocking these people wouldn’t be a bad choice. Neither would telling them how you feel (if you think it’s worth it – but it’s probably not). Idk if the guy actually forcefully penetrated your ass w/o consent, but that’s honestly a reportable crime. The whole situation is, tbh.
Seeing a therapist isn’t bad idea, bc it sounds like this was a traumatic experience. You aren’t to be blamed as the victim. Did you make a bad choice to go to this house and drink? Maybe. But, the other people are the ones who took advantage of you. That isn’t your fault.
I feel for you darling. Good luck. You’ll be ok. *hug*