A little over a year ago I met this girl(21F) online. We instantly clicked. We had the same interests and type of thoughts. We started talking on whatsapp. And my stupid self at the time decided to impress her. I started flirting, showing that I care. We started talking everyday for hours. It was relatively easy as we had very similar interests. I’m kind of a good storyteller. I started telling her all the exciting things I do and did in the past. I listened to her about the struggles she was facing. We became emotionally dependent. And not so surprisingly one night she confessed her love. At the heat of the moment I went into my showman mode. And I kinda said I had the same type of feelings and then I just flirted with her a lot. I made her feel secure and loved. She was afraid we were going too fast for her standards but I assured her. We started sexting in a few days. I did encourage her to do better, I Made her cry twice just by expressing my love. But at the end of the day, I don’t actually have feelings for her. At points I did convince myself that I do have feelings but I have to accept that the emotions were all fake. I don’t like her, I don’t think she’s as great and beautiful as I say she is.
She’s now my girlfriend. I get annoyed fast yet I pretend I care. And you know those fun fights you have time to time if you actually like them. For example, I made a joke slightly poking her and she got angry, now I have to cheer her up. But I don’t want to. I don’t care enough.
I know I’m a scumbag, I know I’m the worst person for making her believe in such lies. But I don’t want to hurt her. I can’t break her self-esteem by saying everything was fake.
What do I do? I want to do better.
Tl;dr: I faked emotions and got into a relationship. What to do?
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This is simple, stop leading her on, grow up and all you have to say to her is ‘hey this isn’t working for me anymore and I’d don’t think we should talk anymore’ don’t tell her you were faking it that would just be mean, but let her know this isn’t for you anymore and wish her well and them break up and move on
> I don’t like her, I don’t think she’s as great and beautiful as I say she is. She’s now my girlfriend.
My brain went into Error404.
Either way, same as you faked the relationship, fake the breakup. You’re doing her a favour even if you choose to block her at this point.
Break up with her. This is the most self-centered thing I have ever seen. You dont want to hurt her, but you literally lie to her every day?
Seriously leave this girl the fuck alone, and never do something like this again. Get therapy while you’re at it. You’re clearly sick.