I’m in high school and I have some very close friends but I never feel like they value me as much as I value them. I know they care about me and probably consider me a very good friend but at the same time they have other friends they may be closer with. It’s a very immature thing to complain about but the thing is I’m not particularly disliked or anything at school. Many people know me and like me, it’s just that I always feel like I’m not anyone’s first choice or anything. Many times I find myself floating from one friend group to another, and yes while I could be considered “part” of that friend group I am never as included as the others.
When school started, instead of developing very close relationships with one group, I tried to get along with EVERYONE. And yes, while I do get along with almost everyone and are friends with many, we just get along. It’s not more than that. I feel like if the entire school were in a room everyone could find their respective friends to group up with, while I’d be sort of left in the middle.
I feel like I’m kind of different from the rest, I’ve been told I dress different, have a different personality and even talk different. Maybe that’s part of it? How do I stop letting this affect me?