So basically i have been a quick learner throughout my life. It doesn’t take much for me to observe and learn something. Like back in school as a kid i learned drums and i was learning beats quick. Then i realized that its just not on this instrument almost every other instrument i learn i catch up very quick is what the teacher teaches. I started to do my flight training after my school and performed better than most around me(wasn’t aware of that back then). In the starting i told myself i don’t know anything and was in full learning mode and everything felt good. After a bit of time when i started feeling i’m good at it i started messing up big time in it. Then i start sucking at it. I messed up and wasn’t able to perform well. One thing i also noticed is when i wasn’t flying for sometime due to a reason when i went back i was again feeling the same good feeling and performed good. But few days into it and i again started messing up in it. I know you might think i feel overconfident but at the time i am messing up i feel very scared and anxious which is why i mess up. But why do i mess up after realizing that i’m doing good at it? I am supposed to be doing even better if i feel confident.
Tl;dr i start off something good but then when i realize i am doing good i start performing bad. Then when i take a break and go back to it i do good again and start messing up again after i realize i am doing good. Why do i end up messing up after i feel confident on myself.
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Maybe when you feel confident you start doing things differently in any way shape or form? Maybe hastier, more challenging, maybe you do it in a more auto-pilot kind of way?
When several days have passed, maybe there’s some neuro-plasticity in the works that optimize whatever you have been doing (don’t quote me on that) to be better, maybe you do it in a less auto-pilot, more consciously kind of way.
Learning processes aren’t linear so I think it’s expected to take a few steps back sometimes. I think it’s better to reframe perfomance as non-linear and embrace failure as part of learning in order to not break your overall confidence. Such breaks in specific areas of competence, may lead to feelings of under confidence, which can bleed into other areas of life. Like social anxieties and whatnot.
I see a bit of myself in your description and I think it’s interesting how spelling this out to someone else is kind of insightfull for me as well.
It’s helpful to remember how learning a skill works.
1. Unconscious incompetence
2. Conscious incompetence
3. Conscious competence
4. Unconscious competence
Step 2 sucks, because, as you start to grow in a skill, you realize how much you lack in that skill.
Or alternatively, you become better at identifying issues in your performance that you could not see before reaching that level.