Hi, I (18f) and my boyfriend (18m) have dating for about 2 months, almost three. Everything has been great so far, but something is just off. He treats me very well, I try to treat him as best as I can. We get each other gifts, I’m always so happy when I’m with him in person. We can’t ever get our hands off each other. In a couple of days, I’m leaving the country. Because I’m leaving the country I figured I’d write him a letter for everyday I’m gone, no harm in that, a romantic gesture right? But as I write, I realized that I can’t imagine a future with him. I told him about it, he told me its still early but I’m still so very concerned. I want a future with him, but I can’t close my eyes and imagine us getting married or something like how he can. I don’t get as excited when I see a text from him, don’t get me wrong we still have long conversations and text but somethings just, I’m not sure how to explain it. Although we’re still early into our relationship, we’ve sacrificed a lot and I don’t want this relationship to go to waste. The spark isn’t as sparky(?) as it once was before.
TLDR: I’m not sure if I’m comfortable in my relationship or if I’m losing feelings. I’m so happy with him in person, but when we’re back home it just feels kinda bleh-indifferent.