…most of the time I do not. On certain days I just feel good about myself and tend to be very curious and playful with other people. Everything just…works. The anxiety of being cringe / weird / unlikable just isn’t there. However, these days are rare. It feels like there are 2 versions of me in my head, the good one comes out very rarely.
Has anyone experienced smth similar? I want to bring that good side out, I want to be that version of myself so bad.
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Same
Things like being tired and other health stuff, can make your reaction and thinking time slower.
Also mental health or undealt problems at work or home that keep your thoughts busy can also affect you.
In a normal paced conversation you might not get too many chances to talk if you’re affected by those things, because the conversation has moved onto another topic by the time you finished your thought. Or you might just not be mentally in the conversation when thinking about some undealt problem that is important to you.
Also habits especially social ones can affect you. If the only things you say are complex witty things, you might just be too tired some days to be only complex and smart. In that case it’s probably helpful to have friends you can talk to more casually and playfully, or spend that time on a more casual hobby.
I have this same feeling but for me it tends to revolve around my energy levels. Days or times of the day when I’m well rested, have had caffeine, and haven’t eaten anything that makes me groggy sluggish I’m much more outgoing and talkative. Times when I have no energy I have a reflex that makes me avoid social interactions.
That’s me