Everyday is a struggle just because of my thoughts about how I perceive myself, I had quite good life when i was in School, have been topper, approached and liked by all, had amazing english skills and pronunciation but things went downhill the moment depression hit me in class 11th which persisted for 7 years which made me face major setbacks although i was able to grab a seat in DU but failed in a sem in clg due to which i had to drop a year which eventually landed me to India’s most prestigious institute for Econ but after being there where people were do much talented, course was quite tough, i started the course with so much enthusiasm, made friends but at last ended up alone because i had severe inferiority complex, self doubt so much that i had performance anxiety due to which i have messed many presentations and had memory lapses where i forgot things and felt like my memory just got blacked out, now i don’t like myself and feels so fucking hard to express myself , I am so much into this trap that it is being hard for me to focus on important things and remembering them, now i am transitioning to a new phase of life to prepare for civil services meanwhile i got a decent job of 20 LPA but I don’t want to mess these opportunities due to self doubt and under confidence, how can i build a strong personality who people look forward and talk to ? Any suggestions please help.
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You seem to care too much and that care is making everything exhausting.
Care less about how you do things and care more about actually doing it. People care about results. Your classmates probably only cared about performing well and not about other things, so they had more energy to perform well. You were too busy worrying about what people think about you.
Lots of people who are not likeable are celebrated because they get results. And lots of people who worry too much about being liked end up unlikeable.
Let yourself be happy, follow basic social rules and traditions, and work enough to finish the job well and that’s it. The rest of your energy can be saved to plan for the future.