I’m a 21 years old graduating student in a 3rd world country, having an existential crisis about the things and decisions that I’m about to make in the next few months.
I’ve been thinking hard about life lately, thinking if i made the right decision to take up the course I’m about to graduate to this year. all through out my academic life the benchmark of success was predicated upon getting the highest grade possible, and i was very good at doing just that — took up enormous amount of peer pressure, gratified my parents expectations and even set myself up to achieve honors. but lately I’ve been thinking about that cliché question for much of the time, staring into the horizon of what my life would be like if i f\*\*k it all up. What was it all f\*\*king for?
Going into my early 20’s i contemplated how big my achievement in the academic world is, it means nothing outside the halls of the university. so I just realized that i have to unlearn every fucking thing i learned in school and modify it to something that i can actually use outside the gate.
I can’t get a hold of this new feeling, its a mix of fear, anxiety, excitement and discontent all fused into one, I want to lock myself up in my room read all the books necessary on how to develop great friendships, how to talk magnanimously, how to earn money and how to multiply it all, and about life generally. to say that I’m craving is just the right word. But i know that i cant read it all in the books, i need to experience it first hand, i need to sweat, get humiliated, learn to stumble again. above all else, i want to cut this big pride and ego i got that is all predicated in my academic identity.
I need guidance, I need wisdom, where do i start?
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Sell auto parts….person to person sales exposes you to people who are experienced in life and mechanics. You’ll learn more shit than reading an encyclopedia. Lol I’m old but I’ve lived a crazy wild great life and working on a parts counter was part of it. The experiences you’ll have will prepare you for a bright future ✊🏽
When you finish school they give you a paper with your grades on it. What those grades say decides which doors outside school is open to you. Good grades open more doors than bad ones. So what you do in school does mean something outside of school. What you actually learn there matters less, but your grades means something. But what you learn in life from just experiencing life matters more than anything. Never stop your own personal development. But you can combine good grades with learning about life.