My ego gets in the way of my social life and I’m sick of it. I think at the core I am a very insecure and paranoid person, so I unconsciously weigh my perceived value of self against other people I meet, and it affects the way I interact with them. It is only after my meeting with them that I do some self reflection and realise what a shitty person I am. It really sucks because in the rare moments where I forget I have an ego, I am cracking jokes and laughing and have fun with others , but that all goes away the moment I am reminded of it. If anyone has had similar experiences and would like to share their strategies I would be very grateful.
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I have trouble with my ego, though perhaps not in the same way as you, and it’s not central to my problems. Can you provide some examples of how your ego affects your social life? Do you feel that you are a shitty person because you are full of yourself? Or do you think lowly if yourself because you have a fragile ego?
I found that reading human history is a great ego killer