I have known this friend for a year, I consider her my best friend. She is lesbian and she told me that she would not go out with me, but at the same time she has me confused because she is very flirtatious with me.
She often touches me and says things in a suggestive way, she touches my butt, she usually grabs my waist, sits on my legs in front of me and always asks if she can touch my breasts (she touch them once without asking) or if she can kiss me, I always say no. It is worth mentioning that she just started touching me one day, it doesn’t really bother me but I find it out of the place. Once she did subtly propose to have sex but I made her understand that I didn’t want to.
She usually tells me about the people she likes and she got along in a very sexual relationship with a friend of hers from whom she separated recently. Which makes me even more confused. Also, she always says that I am bisexual even though I insist that I am straight.
She always tells me how much she loves me, she always tells me things that remind her of me, I’ve seen her staring at me in class for a long time, she sometimes bite me randomly, she likes to play with my hair when I’m around and we always talk.
But at the same time joking she tells me that I’m ugly or that she can’t take me serously.
What happens now that we’re getting very close as friends, I have accompanied her through many things and I’ve told her traumas that no one else know. She confessed me that she is afraid of losing me, and that I am one of the best things that has happened to her.
Recently I realized that I want to kiss or to have sex with her, it usted to seem disgusting to me. I’m starting to feel something for her, I don’t know what it is. But I don’t know what to do, nobody had ever made me feel like this, I want to be with her but at the same time I don’t, I can’t get her out of my head.
tl;dr: My friend tells me she loves me as a friend, but she touches me of suggestive ways. She is making me doubt about my sexuality, but she is the only one that have make mi feel this. Is this kind or relationship normal? What I do?
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First of all, I think you should step away from this friend, who is touching you inappropriately against your will. A true friend doesn’t do that.
If you’re still curious about/interested in kissing women afterwards, go ahead and try. Just not with your friend.
If this was a guy, everyone would be calling his behavior creepy. She’s also negging you by calling you ugly and that she can’t take you seriously. She is also tromping all over your boundaries.
You can explore your sexuality, but she’s not a healthy person to do that with
Yeah like everyone else said it’s ok to explore but not with her. Her behavior is disgusting and it has nothing to do with her sexuality. No one should be touching you inappropriately like that, your friends shouldn’t be asking to kiss you. She’s a total creep like just reread your post but change her pronouns
Get away from that person, is not healthy for you