My boyfriend is 0 enthusiastic about eating me out

I (29F) have been with my boyfriend (25M) for more than four years now. I’m on anti depressants and the pill so sex can be kind of difficult for me but we still do it at least 3 times a week.

And while I enjoy it, I used to LOVE being ate out before I started dating him, but he’s got so little enthusiasm about it that I don’t feel like being ate out anymore because knowing he’s not enjoying it kills all the pleasure I can get from it.

He always wants me to give him bjs, which I always do but rarely reciprocates. And when he does, as I said, it’s like he doesn’t want to do it.

I’ve tried to teach him to masturbate me but he never seems to get it right – he touches me anywhere but my clit and when he does he’s too rough all of sudden which makes me hurt instead of giving me pleasure. I’ve told him millions of times what I like and what he’s doing wrong but nothing changes.

Over the years I’ve asked him if he doesn’t like eating me out, if he’s uncomfortable, but he’s always dishonest about it even though I tell him I won’t judge.

In the end I end up having a better time all by myself than having sex with him.

It doesn’t help that I have friends who their partners LOVE eating them out because I think – why can’t I have this?

So how can I manage this situation? Is there a way I can make it more pleasurable for him??

For the record I don’t smell bad or anything, he’d tell me that.