It’s gotten to the point where alot of previous friends have moved on and I’m left with very little, and those around me are, a little too complex for me to desire myself opening up to them. The one’s that haven’t left have drifted away to some extent and I’m too scared to message them and I don’t know why nor do I know how to get over this anymore.
I’m usually always busy with some personal projects to even speak to people so it almost always slips my mind.
When I make new friendships I am way too inconsistent to make it work by any means. What do I do now? Awhile back I was close to giving up on friendships and I’m close to that now but I don’t think I will. Not realistically, I can’t. Without them my life becomes dull and empty. I need human companionship. That’s what I need.