I always found sex embarrassing, but I could get into it sometimes. I wouldn’t do it with the lights on or anything, no. Dirty talk makes me drier than the Sahara too.
I’ve been tyring ways to increase it for the sake of my partner. Sex isn’t a deal breaker for him but he has erectile dysfunction, he just likes oral.
I’ve tried porn, all kinds but I don’t like it. I’ve tried erotica, it just makes me cringe. I tried fan fic and even with characters I fancy it doesn’t turn me on. I’ve had my hormones checked. I’ve spoke about it in therapy briefly. I just have no turn ons. We tried massage but didn’t feel sexy at all. We’ve tried toys ages ago and I was mortified. I’m out of ideas. I want to be sexual and confident like so many of you but I’m broken.
My partner would love nothing more than to eat me out but I can’t give that to him. Ergh.