My habit of not checking my messages has gotten even worse and idk what to do.

To cut to the chase I have Social Anxiety, ADHD, OCD and Asperger’s (known as ASD now). I’ve also been bullied throughout my time in school and have felt left out and abandoned. I was even ghosted not once but twice by people who I considered close friends. I’m also incredibly socially awkward and when confronted by someone my heart speeds up and I slightly open my bottom jaw and begin to tap my bottom teeth against my upper as if I were chewing. I’m on antidepressants for my said anxiety but somehow I’m still so scared to check anything. I don’t know what’s wrong with me and I wished knew the root cause to my behavior.

This goes for checking social media too and notification’s, its nothing personal against anyone it’s me and my weird brain. Then when I do this said behavior I upset and anger people unintentionally and it leads me to feeling embarrassed for overthinking and waiting for days on end to reply. I’m stuck…