I’ve been lonely for a long time, but I feel like the main reason why I become upset is when I think about it. Sometimes I’m more happy when I’m not even thinking about it, but the insecurity creeps in and the fear of missing out. I’m considering going back into therapy. I was diagnosed with autism when I was very young so making friends was honestly kind of difficult, even if there where some select people I could connect with. I think about that sometimes and I just feel ashamed. But I can’t keep thinking about the past, I have to move on and accept who I am now. I think I am going to be okay.