How to move on from something embarrassing?

If I had one wish in my whole entire life, I would probably wish to have a “normal” social skill.

I used to be content with myself or when I’m with friends who I trust.

But there are times when being socially inept makes me come off as rude and tactless. And in a work space, that is unacceptable. Or at least teeters on that side.

I have major anxiety in crowded rooms full of acquaintances. I don’t want to be perceived. I did something embarrassing today in front of a higher up, I want to crawl into a hole and stay there forever.

But I can’t because this is my career and I have to move forward. How do I at least redirect my thinking pattern and not hate myself to the ends of the earth?