So I just started college this month, and I already had a friend group. I know, right? But it’s because I’ve been with my friend since grade school, and she’s the one I’m closest to. She’s an extrovert, unlike me. At first I pretend to be talkative, but it isn’t enough because after that I suddenly become silent again, and I’m always speechless. I literally have nothing to talk about, and that’s why I’m always left out of the group. Even in group chat, when I chat, no one responds, which is why I’ll never or am not going to chat with them again. And no one—and when I say no one, I mean NO ONE—actually approaches me and talks to me. I feel like it’s because I’m quiet. And unnapproachable. And my friend is really funny, approachable, and smart too. She even invites me to a lot of stuff, and I always decline. I feel like I’m such a burden to her. Because she’s that type of friend that requires a lot of energy to be with, she doesn’t like dull moments, and I’m completely the opposite of that. College is really stressing me out because I need to excel at it. My tuition fee is no joke. I’m in private school, and my mom is putting a lot of pressure on me. And we already have a grouping for the presentation, and, omg, I just can’t anymore. I want to cry. My plan is to practice how to present in front of people. I’ve done a lot of group presentations since last year, but I’m always shaking and nervous, frightened even by how frequently we did group presentations in front of the class last year. My plan is to just pretend like I’m confident and okay, but it never works out. My biggest fear is that we have one subject that is always calling a random person, and he or she should answer it. I was never called, but it is only a matter of time for me to be called, and I need to prepare for it. Because it is really embarrassing to not answer his question. He is our scariest professor. And he doesn’t take silence for an answer. I hate his subject, and we’ll have to meet him three times in a week?! That’s just how you kill me in a week. I badly want to quit college. If I’m going to be honest, I still don’t know how to do a research paper. But I got the highest grade last year. I actually don’t know how the heck that happens. I’m not bragging or anything, but it’s the truth. I enter college knowing basically nothing. And I still don’t have a friend that I vibe with. The friend group I have now is all extraverted. Like ALL OF THEM. They’re so friendly, they even have friends outside our friend group. And I only have them. When someone besides them is talking to me. I only answered so briefly, and my energy is really at its lowest. One of the people in my friend group now says that her first impression of me is that I’m quiet, and she’s right. I’m really just letting anything happen in my life. How do you communicate with people? How to be approachable and how to hold a decent conversation, because I never care about anyone anymore, and it’s hard to have a conversation if you guys have nothing to talk about. I don’t have anything to talk about because maybe I lack interest in anything.