I try to socialize with people as often as possible but i always struggle to say something without having them be caught off gaurd or weirdly defensive about it. I have also received comments about how sometimes they’re afraid to joke around with me because they don’t know how i might react and are afraid that their joke might be “the straw that broke the camels back” this leads to me rarely being invited to hang out and makes me always be the one who attempts to strike up a conversation.
After people get over their worries about me we always become great friends but it’s always like this at the start. Last year my relatives were blessed with twins. I didnt get to see them much during the first 9 months but for some reason every time they see me they cry. It took them 3 to 5 months to stop crying when they see me.
I’ve also recieved comments from some people in my friend group saying that i am most likely to commit a crime because im unpredictable or some shit. Yes im not the most attractive guy on earth but i have nothing that makes me look like the type of guy to commit murder.
I just see people who connect with the same people i interact with day 1 yet i have to struggle and put in a week if not a months worth of effort just to be able to have a conversation and it makes me think “why? Am i the weird one or am i seeing a 1 in a million type of friendship every other week?”
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I’m currently going through a similar situation. My family look at me weirdly because they think I’m unpredictable. Just because I can’t sense danger, they feel that I can’t be trusted, and I feel suffocated.
But I want you to know that there’s nothing wrong with you; it’s the people that you talk to. You’re different in the sense that they have their own opinion on things, and you don’t meet the criteria that they have. And I completely understand that because I’m surrounded by people who love doing drugs, but I don’t like it. People slander me because I’m an academic, and it’s draining. I live in an area where people don’t like me because of my intellectual abilities, so I’m not sure if that’s what you can relate to, but that may be one reason for it.
Please don’t take it to heart, okay? You need to find people who are like-minded to you. It’s just that you’re suitable with other people. Please don’t change your lovely personality because you should take pride in the beauty of your mind.
You just made a new friend, so you’ll never be alone 👍. If you would like to talk, I’ll be here.
Have a great day.
– smile more
– be friendly
– laugh at every joke