I know the answer.
But, life has me down..knock down hard.
Pending divorce…between me (48m) and X (45f), who emptied the accounts, lied and cheated eventually. I suppose the cheating thing is a normal…if you don’t love someone.
Anyway, went on a dating app. Met someone. Wasn’t really a title to our relationship…but it was great. She said things…I never thought to hear, and learned things from her I didn’t know. I was happier than I deserved to be. Me and her hung out, made out…just that.
After a while, distance…the kind you get in your gut.
I paced myself well. But eventually…tonight I had to talk to her. She lived an hour away.
Phone…
The sudo-relationship ended. I feel alone again. Faced against my future
and I don’t know…how to take this person and now be a friend?
I don’t know what to do…I respect her choice. She stated she wasn’t ready..but why be in a dating app? Why did we do what we did, over 2 months? She absolutely knew everything about me. She wanted to know everything, and she even couldn’t believe that I never done drugs, rarely if ever drink…no criminal record. She even ran a background check..lol
I thought my heart was ripped out before…guess I need to go back to Lexapro because I am soooo tired of feeling.
ffs…is this the end?
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Lost is one of my fav shows ever and I never watched it until last year.
> She stated she wasn’t ready..but why be in a dating app?
Because she’s obviously lying to you lol. By 48, you should be wise enough to understand this.
It can be frustrating to look around and see how easy life is for some people, but some of us have to be strong and overcome various hardships. You need to be stronger than this, what you’re experiencing is nowhere near rock bottom.