There was a guy who use to bully me because of my physical appearance and race. If I had a dime for every time I was addressed using racial slurs towards black people by him, I’d be in the hundreds. He’s beaten me up pretty badly on many occasions and I remember being at his wrath and he just wanted me to suffer. So much to the point where my parents had to take me to the hospital to get checked bc I was losing my vision in one of my eyes.
He’s body slammed me in school while his friend recorded me and just so many other things. He use to apologize always after he saw how mad I got but then the cycle continued despite me going to teachers to ask for help. He came back again with his uncountable apology a few years after high school but it sounded like he wanted to make himself sound like a good guy for trying to make amends when in reality there’s nothing he could do to repair all the damage he’s caused in my life.
I told him I accepted but don’t want to be friends and he said that’s absolutely fine and said there’s no hate on his side of things. I can feel how he wants me look like a hater for being resentful